Growing, Growing, Growing

So I know I really suck at updating. But I will briefly catch you all up to what has been going on. I went back to work about 6 weeks ago(one of the reasons I haven't updated) it has been really hard for me, but I am lucky to have such a great babysitter, Grandma:) My mom watches him 4 days a week and Jasmine does one. It makes it alot easier for me to know that he is in good hands. I am always so anxious driving home everyday.

At Krues 2 month visit he was 14.5 ounces! I know, can you believe it? He grows everyday. Oh, and he is not chubby, just healthy! He is the biggest talker. He talks to me all morning while I get ready, he sings along in the car & when I read to him he get so excited and makes all sorts of noises. His newest thing is to suck his fist. He tries to put the entire fist in his mouth. He doesn't really like the binky, he'd prefer his fist or his blanket. He is also starting to play with raddles. My mom always said "kids grow in the blink of an eye" and isnt that the truth. I just try to enjoy everyday with him, cause I know he is only going to get older.

So here is some pics from the past month.

Starr & Chads trip to visit

Chad had a week off of school, the first week of Oct., so Starr & Chad came down to visit. One night we continued our family tradition by frosting cookies & carving pumpkins. We also took a day & went to Zion National Park. My friend Ryan joined us. We took a picnic & enjoyed the beautiful weather.

Krue must have thought Zion was the most peaceful place ever, because he slept ALL day!

We even tried putting his feet in the water.

Still sleeping

Bangs:)Picnic in nature. Even Krue enjoyed his lunch.
Krue loves his Aunt Starr



This is on the way up to Zion. Krue was just so excited.

They even babysat for me one evening so I could go out with my friends. Its just so hard to leave him I didn't end up staying out long.

Pumpkin Carving Night

Uncle Dylan Carved a the "krew" logo into his pumpkin for Krue(those of you that skate will know what this is)

My little round Pumpkin!

Krue's baby pics

I have been meaning to get these on here for a while & haven't. These were taken when Krue was about a week old. I can't believe how much he has grown and changed since then. Its fun to look at them now. Jessica McAllister, my cousin, took them she did an awesome job. Thanks Jess!

Mom's Please Help!

I have to go to Seattle this weekend for work meetings and I am kind of freaking out...I am going to miss Krue so much! He is staying with my mom so I know he is in good hands but I am still having so much anxiety about it. I know it sounds ridiculous but I am afraid he is going to forget me. YIKES. And I know I am going to miss him like crazy, i'll miss all the grunting noises he makes, the giggling in his sleep,bathtime, his beautiful eyes and even his stinky smelly diapers. I know I am being crazy. I know I am going to have a breakdown while I am there. It just seems way to soon to leave him, if I could get out of it, I would. When I come back I have to go back to work full time and that stresses me out even more, but you got to do what you got to do. I just can' t wait till I'm done with school. I am going for Elementry Ed. Even though it is less money then I make now. It will be worth it, the hours are great, great benifits, and I will get to spend my summers with Krue (and my other children someday). Anyway I just need help getting through the next few days. I dont think I am going to be able to put him down at all tomorrow. I will just hold him and hug and kiss him! Geeze, I never thought it would be this hard. Oh and one last thought, this is how proud I am. I even bought a little book that holds pictures, that I can keep in my purse and show everyone!

I will try to post some pics tomorrow before I go but if not I will do it first thing when i get back!

He is growing up to fast!

I Love my mommy!

Too Cute!!!!Visiting Grandpa at work.

Happy Birthday! One month old, and look how big I'm getting.

Splish Splash!I love my Uncle Dylan.

Meeting cousin Zharius, not very happy babies.

Please don't take it away:)
Sleepy time with Aunt Jasmines blanket, sshhh, dont tell.

Home from the hospital
Grandma andKrue
Bath time! He loves it!

So Krue is now a month old. I can not believe it! I will hurry and catch everyone up with how we are doing and tell you a little about Krue's personality since I am so far behind on this blog thing:).

He is getting so big and so much more alert. When I took him to his 2 week check up he was 9.6, the Dr. said that most babies lose wieght when they are first born. So I asked if I was over feeding him and he replied, "no just keep feeding him when he hungry". I wanted to say if i fed him everytime he was hungry he would have been 19 pounds. Being a typical boy he thinks he always has to be eating! He really is a good baby. He doesnt cry unless he needs something. I wouldn't exactly say he is quiet though. He makes so many noises when he is awake and asleep. He wants to talk so bad but cant quiet figure it out. He also makes the cutest humming noise while he eats. The happier he is, the louder it gets. He is very attentive and wants to look at everything. He is a very good happy baby. He is starting to sleep longer through the nights which makes mom happy. We read books daily, take lots of walks and spend time with family and friends. I give him hugs and kisses daily and I am sure he is sick of it, but I love him so much and know he is going to grow up to soon. I cherish every moment I have with him. I have to go back to work soon and its been really hard for me, but I know if i focus working and getting through school fast then it will benifit us in the long run. I cant say it enough but I feel truly blessed, I guess until you are a mother you dont really know the mother-child bond, but now I know how strong it is. The feelings of being a mother overwhelm me daily. Krue, I love you more then you will ever know!

8/8/08

Krue Jaxzen Staheli

Since Krue was born on 8/8/08, which is the Chinese lucky number, and also the same day the Olympics in China started , I thought I would implement some of that luck into his name. I chose to spell Jaxson; Jaxzen in rememberance of his special birthday.

Zen: a chinese Buddhist that teaches self-discipline, meditation and attainment of enlightenment through direct intuitive insight.

My first time holding him

When they handed Krue to me I could not stop crying, tears of joy, of course. To think that I created this wonderful healthy baby and that I get to be his mother for the rest of my life touches me in a way that I cant explain. It was the most overwhelming, amazing feeling I have ever had in my life. I am so lucky to have him. I love him more than he will ever know.

On Friday the 8th of August my beautiful boy was born. He was a healthy 8pounds 1ounces and 20.5 inches long. He is the most gorgeous baby ever. The day was wonderful. You here all of these horror stories about labor so I think you prepare yourself for the worst, but it was a wonderful easy day. Of course there were hard parts but in the end you don't even remember them because of the wonderful gift that comes from it. My Mom Starr and Jasmine were in the room during delivery. My mom and Starr were at my sides helping me along and yelling at me to push(that gets annoying really fast) and Jasmine was being little miss photographer. She got so many pics, even some I didnt want. I was glad she took so many though so I will always be able to remember this special day. After he was born the rest of my family came in and met baby Krue for the first time.